Journal Entries, Tarot

Mid-Week Mindfulness: The High Priestess

Image: La Papesse from the Sacred Sisterhood Tarot by Ashawnee Dubarry and Coni Curi featuring an individual with dark skin, with a head wrap topped with a crescent moon in a bowl of water. They are holding the Tora across their chest in their right hand . Two columns are on either side of them and there is fabric with golden pomegranates behind them.

That question you have been wrestling with-you already know the answer.

We often turn to others for clarification, and that can be a vital step in our journey, but what would it look like to fully trust your inner knowing? Tarot is such a valuable tool for self-inquiry as the cards serve as a metaphorical “third party” but they will always reflect the truth that we hold inside. No card does this better than the High Priestess.

This card serves as a reminder that while our truth can become muddled and can have layers of doubt laid upon it, it is there for us when we are ready. The powers that hunch over our society would shrivel and collapse if they were faced with a populous that was steadfastly self-assured and did not allow campaigns of fear and scarcity affect our every decision. There is a large investment in keeping us in a state of self-doubt. This is important to remember when we are facing situations that require us to really listen to that quiet voice of intuition. We all have one! Even folx who don’t consider themselves to be intuitive hold the same vital information that all of us do-they just need practice.
To work with High Priestess energy is to work with our most intimate capacity for self-trust. For many of us, who had our relationship-to self-fragmented as children through trauma and unmet needs, this can feel startling, overwhelming, and even dangerous. This is where the High Priestess holds us close and allows us to unfold within a container of safety. They remind us consistently, but gently, that we hold the key to everything we are meant for in this life. We hold the answers, the guidance, and the map.

Some of the ways we can connect with this inner knowing is through meditation, pathworking, silence, writing, sleeping (dreaming), and most of all listening. Our brain chemistry tends to yell over everything else, and learning to honour the work our brain does to keep us alive while inviting in the quiet messages that our subconscious has for us is where the medicine lies. There is no wrong way to do this-only the way that works best for you.

Every time we come home to ourselves when we have stayed from our convictions, every time we say “no” to something that doesn’t serve us, and every time we remember that we are the best source of our truth, we embody High Priestess energy. We never lose this gift-they are with us every step of the way. All we have to do is listen.

Until our paths cross again,


Journal Entries, Tarot

Mid-Week Mindfulness: Eight of Wands

I am so grateful for Jeremy Hush’s reimagining of this card. Traditionally, this card is all about creative vision, swiftness, progress, and energy. That is all wonderful…except if you want this card to serve as a waypost. How often do you face the day with a feeling of rocket-fueled inspiration? If so, that is amazing! It is not, however, a common human experience. With each one of the 78 cards, I make it my priority to ensure that all card meanings are universally helpful and serve everyone. So while this idea of being swept away in creative bliss sounds wonderful, it is only one way of experiencing this energy, which brings me back to my gratitude for this particular art.

The individual in this image does not seem remotely concerned with urgency. In fact, they are quite peaceful in repose as nature moves on around them. No doubt there is probably motion of all kinds surrounding them, but it is not changing their experience or their pace.

The suit of Wands is fire-based and while it does have to do with what we are most passionate about, what would that look like without the capitalist indoctrination? Can we deeply care about what we are putting out in the world, while still recognizing that we do not have the capacity to designate energy to it right now? Of course! Pushing through when we know we are at our limit in an attempt to stay relevant, or even in our purest desire to help is unnatural and will inevitably lead to a miserable crash. Our unique medicine is special because it is finite. We are allowed to allocate it how and when works for us and this will fluctuate over time as it should. Healers and deep-feelers often have to learn this the hard way, so use this card as an invitation to look at the offerings you put into the world and assess if you are doing this in a resourced, or a frantic manner. Your gifts and love for your life’s work will not shrink with rest-but they will dull with overexertion.

Until our paths cross again,


Journal Entries, Tarot

Mid-Week Mindfulness: Seven of Cups

Daydreaming is something that we often “unlearn” in adulthood. We are taught to “keep our feet on the ground” and often give up on our aspirations. While there is some truth in being realistic while pursuing our goals, there is rich medicine in allowing our minds to wander to “what ifs.”

This card invites us to imagine a different life, a different career, or a different way of being in the world, but also advises us to look closely at what we are aspiring to. If you notice, in this traditional Rider-Waite Smith card seen here, some of the images in the cups are translucent. This can reflect the “grass is greener” mentality we are all vulnerable to, especially when we are envisioning change. As we allow ourselves to sip from the outside of the limits we, and likely society, have placed on ourselves, we must also check in with our inner knowing before making abrupt change. If there are things in our lives that are not working, is that because of the situation, or have we been disinterested and apathetic? There is no wrong answer here-simply observation.

The Cups represent our emotional realm, and one that is particularly vulnerable to the repercussions of stagnation. I invite you to indulge in the luxurious, limitless, and exciting possibilities that you can bring to mind, and imagine embodying these new personas or lifestyles. How can you welcome some of these practices into your life without completely overturning everything? Are there introductory classes to something you have always wanted to learn? Could you use a change of scenery with your partner? Is there a new way of cooking that you have always been curious about? This is your nudge.

Until our paths cross again,


Journal Entries, Tarot

Mid-Week Mindfulness: The Tower

The Tower is one of the most feared cards in the tarot deck and yet it is my favourite grounding card and provides some of the most transformational healing.

First, I want to honour that while I have come to embrace this card, that does not mean that it is easy energy to be in. That would defeat the purpose of it. The very nature of the Tower is seismic and can be incredibly destabilizing, but that is precisely where the medicine is. It asks: “What circumstances cause my entire foundation to crumble and how can I rebuild in a way that will better support me next time an earthquake hits?”

The Tower will never demolish anything that is in our best interest. This energy comes to serve when the “home” we have built will not allow us to grow any further and it does not mess around–it takes it down to the ground. This can be frightening to watch, but this ally stands with a hand on our shoulder and whispers: “You’ve got this.” 
The freeing thing about moving through Tower times in our lives is that there is nothing we have to “do” at that point. All of the hand-wringing and indecision is finally behind us and we are now left with an empty lot on which we can build the foundation and cocoon that will house us for our regeneration. We do this with experiential knowledge and a deeper understanding of our own inner workings.

The gift within this card is that with timeless wisdom, no judgement, and zero toxic positivity, The Tower bears witness in the hardest times that we have to endure. I had always come to think of this as things like loss, divorce, and ruptures in trust, and it absolutely can be, but I have recently come to understand it as a messenger. It comes when we are presented with opportunities for new ways of metabolizing existential pain. This is not tied to circumstances-it can happen as part of our process without a catalyst. If we are open to exploring our personal way of experiencing the world, we will come up against painful and challenging truths about ourselves. The older we get, the more conclusive we are about the kinds of disruption we can manage, and this certainty comes at a cost: we do not evolve. It is okay to learn that it takes less than we thought to bring us to our knees: The Tower stands with us, and reminds us that while this may be a chapter of demolition, it is more importantly leading into a book of our becoming.


New Moon in Leo & Inner Strength

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Without even realizing there was a New Moon in Leo this week, I have been working with the medicine in the Strength card (which astrologically corresponds with Leo). It showed up for me in a reversed position recently and has haunted my daily draws so I have been pathworking* the card for the last little while.

The overall theme of the Strength card is a reserved, compassionate, and kind type of strength. It speaks to using power in a way that is supportive and non-oppressive. I wanted deeper meaning and to explore how this card can serve as an ally for us and this is what I came to share during this new moon, in this time of renewal:
Sometimes the things we don’t say have the most power.

My particular neurological wiring, augmented with C-PTSD, ADHD, and a host of other unique attributes, makes impulse control a monumental challenge. I am also a very passionate person so when I hear/see/sense something that I consider unjust or unkind, my nervous system goes from 0-100 in seconds. I see red. I snap into “fight-or-flight” mode. As you can imagine, this does not make for the most articulate arguments and certainly does not lead to opening someone’s mind.

This is where the Strength card can be an integral balm in your healing toolkit. There is potency in subduing our inner lion. This can often show up when we take a beat instead of reacting. I have learned that in this pause lies the difference between an argument–with potential injury to the relationship–and a learning opportunity for both of us.

Have you ever met someone who has that element of quiet wisdom? I have always been in awe of those people, and envied their self-possession. They leave an indelible impression on me. I think the reason these emotionally evolved people are so influential is that folx who are conducting themselves in a way that is harmful know that they are wrong on some level. They are expecting to defend themselves. They have their words slung over their shoulder. When they are met with an unflinching gaze, rather than a tirade, it shakes them up. It causes the words of defense that they keep ready to get caught in their throat. There are meaningful ways that we can affect change that require intentional silence.

Note: I want to be clear that this is not about violent silence, where we say nothing and allow someone to cause direct harm. This is not about allowing someone to be abused while you stand by and do nothing. This is about other people’s life choices and more long-term situations. You are unlikely to change your racist, bigoted uncle’s mind over dinner, but you might pose some questions that cause him to reflect. You probably aren’t going to turn your meat-loving friend into a vegan, but your choice to personally lead a life that less harm is a statement in itself.

Our big reactions to things are tangled up with our triggers and it takes time and space to be able to tell the difference. I am still working on this. I am learning about resolve. I am exploring the power of sitting in discomfort while taking a pause. Something happens every time I succeed: I don’t look back at the interaction and cringe and I don’t have to dread seeing the person I shared that interaction with. Quite often they leave with something to consider that just might change their mind.

Invitation: How does this particular kind of strength show up in your life? Do you have anyone in your life who embodies this kind of strength? What do you think of them? What are the “hot button” topics that are hard for you to discuss without becoming heated? How might you learn to sit with that dissonance long enough to allow your nervous system to regulate so that you can take part in important conversations without either blowing up or shutting down? Can you recall a time when you were able to gently comfort your inner lion and create a safe space where different viewpoints can be expressed and meaningful change could take place? Conversely, where do you draw the line? For example, there are some discussions that I have no interest in being a part of right now because I know that they are too distressing for me.

*The practice of pathworking in the tarot is varied but often refers to meditating on a single card to go deeper into the meaning. Some people use guided visualizations and imagine actually stepping into the card and interacting with the figures and/or environment pictured, others just allow themselves to be open to new information about the card’s meaning. Other practitioners consider pathworking to be a long-term process of picking up information about the concepts in the cards along the way.

A figure with a floral crown and wearing a white dress adorned with flowers gently closes a lion's mouth. The lemniscate, or infinite symbol floats about their head. The overall color in the background is yellow.
The Strength card from the Rider-Waite Smith Tarot

Are you Going Through Life on Autopilot?

As I moved from my 30’s to my 40’s I noticed a specific pattern of well, patterns. I did the same thing most days and reached for the same vices repeatedly-all contributed to disengaging from my life. I spent too much time in a habitual rut and it was only through returning to my tarot practice six years ago that I recognized how much of my time was spent “sleepwalking” through my days.

Although I have used tarot for over 20 years, it was when I took the deep dive into the cards to form a relationship with each one and what I realized is that every single card illuminates a different aspect of our lives. Every card! That was 78 ways that I was potentially ignoring my needs, desires, and fears. I became focused on putting together a system for learning the cards that did not feel like a grind. I am proud to share this system through Tarot Essentials, my signature Tarot course.

Tara Brach says:
“Perhaps the biggest tragedy of our lives is that freedom is possible, yet we can pass our years trapped in the same old patterns…We may want to love other people without holding back, to feel authentic, to breathe in the beauty around us, to dance and sing. Yet each day we listen to inner voices that keep our life small.”
― Tara Brach

I began to deepen my practice and use tarot full-time for healing and self-reflection. I studied each of the cards in order, sought out the recognized leaders in the tarot world and committed myself to a tarot practice in the hopes that I could return home to myself and my inner knowing.

Now I find myself:
• 13 years into my committed partnership and despite everything we have been through, we are more connected than ever.
• Using tarot to check in with myself regularly, before I burn out.
• Making strong decisions based on deep inner-knowing and self-trust.
• Working from a place of service teaching something that I love!

Finding ways to demystify tarot and learn the meanings without being overwhelmed is what led me to create my signature course, Tarot Essentials. I truly believe that tarot is for everyone! Some readers bring beautiful psychic gifts to their tarot practice but it is unnecessary to have anything other than curiosity and a desire to work with the cards. I often find that the people who have no experience with tarot tend to have the most profound observations. Young people, in particular, who do not doubt themselves often hit the nail on the head as far as traditional meanings go.

This Eight-Week online course will give you everything you need to read tarot for yourself and others.

When we learn to use tarot to self-reflect, rather than as a predictive tool, we open up a new line of communication within ourselves that can heal our relationships with ourselves and others. We can navigate blind spots in the privacy of our own sacred space, and we can find a way to contribute more positively to the world.

It never fails to amaze me to learn what a deck of cards can unlock in all of us.

Until our paths cross again…

Enrollment for Tarot Essentials will reopen in Autumn 2021. Please join the waitlist to secure your spot.


Two of Cups

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Please note that this series of interpretations is intended to assist specifically in personal healing and shadow work. I am not a mental health professional; these are my personal reflections and experiences that I hope you will find helpful.

Please see my thoughts on age, race, and gender in tarot.

Traditionally, this card is read as a coming together of two people in a new, loving relationship. This eliminates a large part of our wonderful population so let’s explore a slightly different angle. While this card can be about an equal, compatible partnership, it has more to do with the overall theme of “coming together.”

In tarot, twos often point to decisions and duality. Because we are in the realm of emotions with the Cups, this card often comes up when someone is having trouble holding space for two or more parts of themselves.

12644951_10153749695945935_4116842080432364353_nAs we go through life, we often branch off in many directions, sometimes nudging parts of ourselves away. This can be a positive thing, but it can also lead to a sense of instability. It brings me back to the idea of “This AND that are true.” Meaning, the more we open ourselves to loving all polarities that exist within us, the more balanced and self-loving we become. 

There is also a gentle vulnerability in the Two of Cups. An offering of the cup that holds all of your precious secrets, fears, shame, and hopes. With uncertain hands, we hold this out to someone. Such a beautiful gesture, and a courageous one.

For those who are seeking partnership, this can be a vital step in attracting someone that will provide a more supportive and rich relationship. It is almost as if we send out signals that we are unwilling to settle for anyone who won’t appreciate our unique gifts the way we do. 

For those not seeking a partnership, this could mean both a deepening of self-appreciation or potentially a new friendship, or experiencing a new level of closeness with an existing friend. That goes for individuals currently in a partnership as well. 

I invite you to spend some time looking at all of the “hats” you wear in life. Using myself as an example, I am a homeschool mom so that is my “teaching” hat, I’m also a mother, a partner, a daughter, a sister, a friend and a tarot instructor. There are times where being a homeschool mom does not play well with being a mother so it can be difficult to appreciate both of those things at the same time. Out of these “hats” the most challenging one would be associated with my family of origin. This is something I am continually working on due to a necessary separation from them. 

What are the “hats” you wear? How about masks? Many of us have masks that we must wear to fit in under certain circumstances. Some of those are necessary, but are there any masks that might be shed? In order to love all parts of ourselves, including parts that we hide away, we must be willing to look inward with curiosity and love, and without judgement.

We think the fire eats the wood. We are wrong. The wood reaches out to the flame. The fire licks at what the wood harbors, and the wood gives itself away to that intimacy, the manner in which we and the world meet each new day.”
― Jack Gilbert

“To say “I love you” one must know first how to say the “I”.”
― Ayn Rand

Until our paths cross again…


Tarot Myth-Busting #2

Myth: Tarot is Evil/ Satanic/ Black Magic.

Truth: Tarot is simply a deck of cards.

With respect to the rich spectrum of belief systems, there is nothing evil about using tarot. It is simply a deck of 78 cards, each with a place in a timeline of the human experience.

The readers I choose to align my work with use tarot from a place of support and encouragement. We use it to provide clarity to folx who are struggling to find their way forward. We use it to gently guide people towards a place of healing. We illuminate blind spots in ourselves and others so that we may move forward in a strong, compassionate way.

Of course, anyone can use the tarot and while I have not heard of anyone using it to ring up demons for their party, I can say that I have heard of tarot being used in ways that are incredibly insensitive. I have heard several accounts of people going to a tarot reader and having left with dread and fear. It is not unheard of for a reader to turn the cards over, gasp and claim that they can’t finish the reading, leaving the person who sought their guidance sick with fear about what was coming. If there is potential “evil” that can be associated with tarot, it lies with the reader.

Most of the above accounts were before the age of the internet so now we can learn more about a reader before seeking their services. While I don’t know if those examples could be classified as “evil,” I will assert that it is definitely “irresponsible.” Most tarot readers have descriptions on their approach as well as videos and/or writing that you can look at to see if they feel like a good fit for you. If you aren’t sure, ask them! If you are looking for a particular kind of reading, the good news is there are as many tarot readers available as there are decks. With online interactions becoming the new normal, you are not limited to a reader in your area, so poke around.

Summary: The Tarot is a deck of 78 cards illustrating, or suggesting various aspects of the human experience. Because anyone can use the tarot, I suspect you can find people who are using it for darker purposes, but it is simply a tool that can be used for so much good. Try not to let fear turn you away from a tool that has quite literally saved my life.

Until our paths cross again…


Embracing the Shadows: New Course Offering!

Whether you are new to tarot or a seasoned reader, chances are you have found yourself thrown off by some of the more dramatic cards in the deck. Perhaps the person you were reading for had a strong response to the images on one or more of these cards. The truth is, these dark or traditionally “scary” cards are some of our strongest allies!

I have spent years with these cards and have found ways to bring the light to them in your readings for yourself and others. This course was put together with my profound love for the special gifts within these challenging cards.

What is Embracing the Shadows?

Embracing the Shadows is a self-guided journey through ten of the most misunderstood cards of the tarot. Once you register, you have lifetime access to this course material including updates and improvements. Whether you are new to tarot or a seasoned reader, there will be something in this course for you. I have included a brief introduction to tarot to ensure accessibility for new tarot students.

This course will take you from cringing at the sight of these cards in a reading to celebrating the healing gifts that they bring to you and your clients. We will be looking at the Five of Cups, Three of Swords, Eight of Swords, Nine of Swords, Ten of Swords, Five of Pentacles, The Hanged Man, Death, The Devil, and The Tower. 

This offering is highly personal and I am so grateful to be able to share it with you. 

As someone healing from C-PTSD from severe childhood abuse, 8 years into recovery from addiction, and living with a host of brain chemistry issues, I continue to walk this healing road with you. I am passionate about sharing my favourite tool for this journey: the tarot. 

Tarot has the potential to bring us home to our inner knowing. Facing these ten cards from  this perspective helps to remove fear from the equation whether you are reading for yourself or for others. If you approach these ten cards with an open heart and mind, they have the most transformative potential to offer. They will help you learn to move through triggers and challenges with fluidity while still living your truth. 

This course includes:

  • Over 2 hours of recorded video with slides.
  • 4 Lessons covering why these ten cards are traditionally challenging and new ways to work with them.
  • A 12 page workbook full of information, definitions, journal prompts and tarot spreads.
  • Insight from an instructor with over 20 years experience. 

If you would like to gift this course to someone, please contact me after purchasing.


Ace of Cups


Please note that this series of interpretations is intended to assist specifically in personal healing and shadow work. I am not a mental health professional; these are my personal reflections and experiences that I hope you will find helpful.

Please see my thoughts on age, race, and gender in tarot.

Here, we enter the realm of the Cups which represent our emotions, intuition, and relationships.

Screenshot 2021-01-15 132526With the Ace of Cups, we are being offered a new beginning in the form of a rush of feelings, excitement, and/or intuition. While traditionally this card is associated with new relationships, considering many folks are not looking, it is helpful to widen our approach to this card. In this way, the idea of a rush of new feelings can be applied to friendships, events, and realizations. This energy may come through as the experience of something the seeker has not felt before. 

This Ace is an awakening of sorts. Sometimes it manifests as a deepening of feelings for a certain person or a rich deepening of your intuition.  

How would you describe the feeling of the Ace of Cups? Where does it manifest in your physical body? This might be a fun intuitive painting, sketch, or free-write. Can you recall a time when something inside of you awakened? Do you think there might be ways to invite Ace of Cups energy in when things are stagnant? Perhaps you could journal about these thoughts and the idea that we can, at any time, summon the energy of a tarot card as a guide and an ally.

“Your own Self-Realization is the greatest service you can render the world.”
Ramana Maharshi

“The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart”
― Helen Keller

Until our paths cross again…